Taufiq Hafizan

Let just say that I'm Taken.

and it is just for this post. Well said at last !

End of May.

The last post tu sebenarnye, Tak sempat nak habes ! haha
Alhamdulillah, after struggling even for the last minutes, haaa last minute tu yang mencurah curah rezeki. Alhamdulillah I achieved the goal for this month to be qualifying as supervisor ! *sujud syukur* Thanks to all my beloved downlines and parents for keep supporting in many ways. :) Finished strong, and for June I must start strong ! Even apa pun berlaku esp in the biz, customer lari sana sini, ada penculik bertopeng, duit tak cukup lah, tak percaya itu ini lah. Semua itu for me is just a challenges ! challenge for me to start and finish strong. What I believe the most is everything come from Allah. So, if you know rezeki tu come from Allah, you'll pay more attention to Allah. :) and make it worth while.It simply a good and motivated business where you help people and Insyaallah one day Allah will help you, just don't afraid to walk through the bush and come out with success ! Amin amin.

However, Month of June lagi hebat nanti ! I just need to divide myself into 3 !
1. My precious life with Allah, me, Family, Besties and Boyfriend :)
2. My long journey of future, Study study !
3. ofcrse, My inspiring herbalife- life !

so, If you're walking here in this blog, if you're interested in consuming herbalife for your own reason,text me :) I'll makesure that you'll see the bigger picture of being one of the dreamer in herbalife where we dream it then we build it ! :)

Running of time to be prepared for tomorrow to see dear lovies,Oh yeah today is 3rd of June and it's his babybornday! Happy birthday sayang ! May you be the best part of me today and forever, be a better man okay ?

Assalamualaikummmmm, sipu sipu senyum... awwwww

This is another story of my first extravaganza. At first, I tak paham pun what all this things work. Ingat mcm normal events so just ckp dgn my mom, "Eh, mcm nak pegi je extravaganza herbalife ni!" but still not hoping ! Then went back, still not hoping. My mom told this story to my dad bout extravaganza. Seems She really wanna go but when she saw me yang excited nak pergi, dia mengalah. Entah tetibe, they sponsored me to go when I'm not even beg them to go there. There, rezeki is everywhere, you just need to have good thoughts, pray alot and do something good ! Back to the line, okay they said it was for my birthday. A trip to singapore; learned more things in extravaganza and enjoy myself in Universal Studio. Tho I was a bit sad to not be with my family and friends during my 20th birthday, but it was still some moments that were so valuable ! I was with my herbalife family and I enjoyed new things, new moment and new family ! wahhhh simply the best !

It's Extra- Va- Ganza !

Have you had your shake today ?
if not, you're a little too late. Sokay, grab your phone and text me :)
Today me want to have a lil sharing bout what I'm actively doing now. Herbalife ! ofcrse.
what is Herbalife ? Lemme short the looooooong talk. It's a food. daily consume food which have 55 nutritions where you can hardly found the complete nutrition in any food. It's not a medicine to lose weight or gaining. To lose weight is just a bonus point when you can take care of ur food intake. Complete statement ?
Ppl, at one point please take care of yourself esp in the inside where the fats may be the severe virus to put us down and increasing the hospital bills. Get a deep thinking, think how valuable our life are ? Yess ppl used to said, "you live to eat, you eat to live" but with consuming the so not right food all the time, it's 100 % of wasting more money compare to save the money for some quality food. Home food usually the best, but does all moms have their time to prepare fully nutritiousness dishes everyday? I don't think so. We're now in the era of "world move fast" so, the easier way to get the healthier food to consume is with Herbalife. You may choose other products, but once you're consuming herbalife products, you'll just falling in love with them :) Trust me ! So, please correct the old dusty statement to "you eat healthy food to live healthier" :)
To know further, wait for the next post :)

well, for almost this 1 month I seriously and passionately join Herbalife group, It was OHSHEMMM !
went for Zero to Hero @ Port Dickson is the first experiences that make me suprise of the people in Herbalife. Joined STS in Kuantan where I learned alot step by steps and Yess Extravaganza OPEN MY EYES,EARS, MIND AND HEART !
Why ? There's millions of reasons. You were with 25 thousands ppl all over asia pacific for one dream and goal. Gahhh, amazing. :) you are not gonna feel what I felt until you're there ! What u get will be different from the others. What touched me the most, Mark Hughes invented herbalife because of his mother, and to see next people afterwards live healthier and not dying cause of the sickness from ur own creating diseases ! Obesity! If you love urself, Mama papa, Family and ppl around you, start helping them to consume the right food ALL THE TIME !
Despite, I now having my own strong WHY'S in herbalife. but still wanting to go to more events to make it perfect WHY ! Think of off-ing, I'LL STORY LATER MORE BOUT EXTRAVAGANZA, MY FIRST EXTRAVAGANZA.
Here are some of the memories there !

This is my group :) Azwa and Azmi's group !

Penyapu.

I don't want to describe this in more details but I'm here as Malaysian who have right to speak and give some comments on what is happening now in our country.
Where is the humanity in each of us ?
Whatever happening and whoever is them, even from whatever party you guys are in now.
Where is the respect towards each other? where is the wiser thinking of human being ?
blood were every where and still people were not realized that, that is a life of someone.
I'm just afraid of Malaysia to be like the other Nation without peaceful and harmony life in it.
Life is cruelly unfair but who deserve to be at the top is no one. Why not get together and peace the mind, the ethic, the decision, the words and this is just for our country !
See, Kiamat makin dekat. Macam ini kah suasana manusia di negara ini untuk generasi akan datang ?
I may not be good in these but I just have the heart towards my beloved country and I'm sad :( .
p/s : and oh mungkin sebab yang bernas, mereka kurang nutrisi. Mehlah consume Herbalife :D
Sincerely speaking, Hamba Allah.

Driving & Riding Licenses made my life.

Berhabuknyeee blog ni. puh puh haccummmmmm !
Wah, dah makin update blogspot sekarang. Miahaha
Okay post ini tak akan ada gambar kecuali when I'm gradually passed the JPJ Test :) I decided to take these licenses because it's time. Yelah dah 20 years kalau takde license mcm noob sikit bak kata kwn kwn kannn ?
Dah pass lesen L, sekarang it's time for making P license which contributing the practicals. Honestly, I never touch the manual car and of course not a motorcycle ! So tahap kegigilan tu terserlah lah kan, but at least I do practice at home riding motorcycle but as usual, me iz so pemalas !
Car practical was okay but no awkward things happened ! I just love to learn more and more.
but then let me tell you dear wall on the day I rode the motorbike in the track. I WAS NERVOUS. Shaking. Parkinson mai dah ! but I don't limit myself for not doing it. I still did it. Semangat gila habes teging. At one point, Selekoh. Dah tak pandai balance. Pandai dan bijak untuk press minyak, Padan muka dan saya jatuh tergolek bersama motosikal tersebut. ohshemm ! Tapi no worries cause I'm okay and tak cedera pun. Jap, cedera sikit. cedera Mental sebab kesakitan hati dan tahap Malu tu sangat menebal ! but then lepas tu takde istilah cover ayu cover vain, aku mmg brutal. buat muka tak tahu malu and terus belajar until second time masuk, alhamdulillah me getting better ! Alhamdulillah. hehe :) but I still tak rasa bagus because me need more practices !
Just satu je, treating people nicely lah. Kita kan tengah belajar, salah tu perkara biasa cuma give us the chances to be better. Belajar setinggi mana pun, benda tu lain dengan benda ni. So jangan guna alasan belajar tinggi tapi tak pandai drive tu as tabiat sebab itu tak menjamin wahai semua cikgu sekolah memandu. Cerita dia kalau kau ajar murid seperti saya dengan bagus and TENANG, Kejap je pickupnye tapi kalau nak marah makihamun, memang tak berkat. Village. :D
So I've more classes to attend esp the riding class because I need to improve more and Mahir in these part. Wish me best of luck and pray hard for me okay? May me pass the JPJ easily and yeah boleh jadi driver korg lepas ni, ye ke ? :D

Hello is a new big smile,

Namaste.
Hello Kuala Lumpur and Kuantan,
well said I'm home soul and body. hehe

let just stop about the continuous episodes of loveshit. purfff
Me having fun and having new things to be done during this looooooong hoholiday !
Oh, DELAYED.
Talking bout delayed, lemme tell you how my heart broke into pieces when my trips were delayed!
First, my 4.20pm flight was delayed to 5.55pm flight which made Mira rushed to JB, seriously spoiled the happiness when we arrived but it was still okay to me since I don't really have the heart to go back that day.
Then, the next day is the journey to Kuantan which I really wanted to go back as fast as possible cause my family was waiting for me, even having BBQ to celebrate me.
The bus was delayed and it made my tears fall. I took a bus from kajang to kuantan on 830pm which I thought I could reach home just in time, but the bus was too slow dragging my time till I became pissed off ! but thank God, that Uncle rempit-ing and we arrived around 3am and when I rang the doorbell, EVERYONE WAS ASLEEP. :(

Since I was hungrayyy baby, I ran to the kitchen and I can't believed it,
there was my fave asam pedas ! I knew Mak cooked for me, I knew she really missed me, cause when I was sleeping, she went to my room and looking at me sleeping and kacau-ing me with that lil monster, Nod. :D

So, maybe this holiday is for me to make a little changes which is
spending most of my time with family rather than friends which I always did.
I just feel, I'm adult now so changes for better is so necessary,crawling the age, I think it's time to think bout myself and family rather mostly thinking bout the other person. So, me going to work and do my driving license !

Till now, I think I'm falling for you but at the same time, I'm confused with what I'm going to do. So ? I don't care bout thinking too much. I'm going with the flow !

In the middle of mess,

. . . CONTINUING

Help me, what am I doing ?
Is this for real or just keep the feeling pretending ?
I DON'T KNOW.

Do we have any required test on this?
Give him up or try to hold the pretending feeling until it becomes real in reality ?


TO BE CONTINUED . . .

Move-ing on,

Feel like wanna write on the love story that never end. Boring ?
See the X ? click them.

it is not the issues, but see in many things, one of the suck-iest thing I'm failing is the love story. It's because of me who just feeling afraid to move on to the next chapter but please Beeha, the other half of you begging you badly to-move-to-the-next-chapter and stop thinking bout the perfectness, the future you plan to have. Just go with the flow.

... IS CONTINUING
First thing first is to say that I never felt that He was the first love now,
but I do miss him a load. I missed the way he treated me, the way we used to be.
but everything just gonna be a memories that the best friends should have.
Even now, the closest person is like the acquaintance. Sokay girl, it's your time.
okay, forget bout him. brahhhhh

Moving on, I always making the stupidest mistakes of letting a guy to love me and waiting for me like there's no hopes at all to get me. I used to make the guys as my best friends rather hook up to them as one special person. See, how arrogant I am ?
I hate this part of me. CRUEL-ism.
I made this not only at one guy, but more than that. Letting them in but not giving any chances for them to get me. Then when they get bored, they left and me ?
The problem might be 80 % came from me. Some kind, I'm too choosy. I just can't accept one that not-so-good on appearances and one who have totally different thoughts from mine. I'M FREAKING CHOOSING AND PERFECTIONIST AND I'M DIFFICULT.
and again, I hate this part of me, being too ego in this thing.

but now, I don't think of making the same mistakes over again and still stuck in the same level of this love thingy. I just need to be brave enough to face this by letting the heart to unlock for anyone who might-not-exactly-deserve it. but why not for the second time, let the heart choose and hurt. *It is simple to say but too hard to be done* hmmmp

so, the story begin . . .
I'm-letting-this-stubborn-heart-to-be-owned-by-anyone-who-can-grab-it !
but sorry to say, until my heart find out that you're the one, I wont be as loyal as you wish just what can make u secure is youcanputatrustonme !
So here is one guy that turns me differently in choosing him. Him, who is totally different from me from any aspects just making me to choose him because I believe that, somehow things should be learn form a different views. I've starting to love him to be by my side because it is good to have a partner to talk to. hmmp even it's not the best one but it is still new, why not give him a try ?

I asked him to be closer to me and try to know me as well as he could because I'm to tally bangang and if he thinks that me doesn't fit him, it's good to hear if he wanna leave. Okay, it is not that I'm easily put them away but I just don't want to waste anyone time and search for new one :)

So, dear Mr unlucky to love me,I put high hopes on you to change me to fall into you. As I wish that you could make me trust you more than I could now, may you be the ears that will not bored to hear me, may you successfully grab my heart and inject her with love.
Will you ? dare ?




. . . . to be continued

IT started.

I told you, when it comes to THIS. I'm terribly a disaster.
it's either me want to move on and not being afraid to face the consequences later,
or just forget it ?

to be continued. . .

9 Days to face FINAL.

Evening everyone,

Nowadays I can see myself getting weirder. WHY ? me also don't know.prrrfff.
Almost every evening, I jogged . well said, consistently to build up my stamina back and refresh the mind along with enjoying the greens. I found it is interesting to run as fast as you could if you're in trouble and sadness. It's not a way to get rid of those problems but to make your mind kicking the unnecessary things out !
It's seem almost 2 weeks when I started consistently jog in fact to be slimmer and there was one time where I was in the sadness. Despite talking to someone, now running is being the second doctor to make me calm down and forget everything that so called reality. but,

every time I jog, I jogged alone and wished to be accompany even I refuse to.
every time I jog, I listened to the musics but there is no one to imagine it with.
every time I jog, I'll have a rest to watch the sunset but I wished someone to be besides me talking to me.

I somehow seen that I live this life alone. Where is me with lots of laughter and talk ? Not to deny that it seems relaxing to be alone doing things alone but,

I keep telling myself that this will only be temporarily because I NEED HOME.
sob sob. As I wish that anyone could understand this heart.

On the trip to Miri

I was not really excited because this is trip needed report to be written.
Well said, it was an educational trip to Miri which specifically to Farm and Nursery.
but, It was fun. Okay, fun lah because at least . . .

1. I had a chance to go to Miri, FREE !
2. I rode on ROLLER COASTER, which related to the bus and to the road along the journey
3. I had Mc Donald after almost 4 months and having my second prosperity :) *LAME*



and still I need to write a report and I haven't finish em yet. HAHA
you know what, I didn't listen much or took any pictures there for the report because I just don't have mood that time.prfffftttt.

cut the crab.
Scroll down to see us there in Miri.


Okay, Let me introduce these person which are closely related to me here. They are like a bunch of people that I comfort to be closely friend with. They are Mira, Deko, Yus and Daylon. We called us The bini-biniku gangster because it is a fact that we're gangster. Haha






Shouting point:
FINAL IS AROUND THE CORNER !
which means that the flight ticket is soon to be printed !
which specifically mean I'M GOIN HOME !

ความหวาดกลัว

Hi Wall- E,
Saya Takut sangat sangat.
Sejak dua menjak ni, saya takut sangat sangat tentang 2 perkara.

First, am afraid of Allah and all the sins I made.
I takut sangat sangat. I rasa macam, hm. I'll try for better improvement. Yes Nabihah, you need improvement and you need to change in every single things. Perhaps, you too friends. I tak nak masuk neraka, I takut sangat sangat. Every time I thought bout this. I feel that, death is searching for the next soul to be taken. Maybe it'll be me ?
I can't describe more because it catch my breath every time I think bout this.

Secondly, am afraid to face future. I need to maintain what the hard works I had made but life means ups and down. Sometimes, we're up and in anytime we can be down. I tell you, it's hard to maintain the best result except that you're genius. I'm afraid and the anxiousness hugs me every time after I did my test. I want the best. The best that I have from my very own hard works and bless from Allah and parents and with the help of friends and supports from best friends. I- want- a - bright- future !

Every night before sleep, the only thing I kept imagined of was HOME .

I just have the mood,

Hi My Fave Wall,
and Assalamualaikum if you're coincidentally reading this wall.
How are you, guys ?

Today I think it's time to merepek and confessing bout anything that comes to my mind right now.:) So, just take it as a lessons and pray for a better life of me and you,

First Scenario; The Changes I felt,

Nowadays, I can feel that I'm changing to be the most silence person in doing things, everyday. I talked but less. What I know are Studying, Finishing my assignments as early as possible, Eating while watching movies, Solah and praying, Talking with roommate but still less, Doesn't care bout my hand phones already, My phones' credit always like RM 0.00, Doesn't have intention to contact anyone except my mum, my brother and Nazlia, Too lazy in meeting, talking, on-the-phone or text-ing anyone,Eat once a day, Saving money, I could see my weaknesses clearly and being a little perfectionist in my life nowadays.

In one point, I think these changes are great and would be a best impact for me to achieve the best pointer this semester, 4.0 is what I'm dreaming for this semester. Insyaallah :) but seems like less communicating with those lovers in my life making me looks terribly sucks.
But dear friends,
it is not my intention to ignore you'olls. I MISS YOU GUYS THE MOST because here, I can't find friends like all of you. I'm hoping to have the species of friends like you guys, here but unfortunately, it's rare.

I still doesn't know what had happened to me ?
Maybe I'm missing my life there, or maybe it's time to be matured enough since I'm 20 years old, or maybe I doesn't have the perfect mates to talk bout everything here. Naah, I don't really care because I know whatever happens there lies a thousand meanings. :) I'm just fine only that I'm less talking here and there. Oh, maybe the other word could describe me now is, FOCUS :D sounds annoying? Naah, I don't care much. hehe

okay, done.

Second scenario; The same feeling, Forever.

I confessed to him that the feeling gonna be the same but the situation will totally be different :) Yes, you don't have to worry because I never learned how to hate people, only I knew is to stay loving the one we used to love because you're not losing anything nor having anything by doing that. :) I used to love him too much that making me hurt but it's not a big deal now and ever because I'm thankful to him for making me learned how to accept the faith sincerely and making me to be much more matured in the love stories. I miss those memories but yet I can't have it anymore with him but I will have a new one with the new person. Perhaps? :) Life is too short, so what for you are crying for the same person? Go die. Just let them be the history that you can never forget about and step forward to the new wide world that full of misery and loves :). I asked, please don't stop loving me the way you love me before even though you're in love with her now.

Third Scenario; Boyfriend is a must ?

Sometimes, it making me annoyed when people used to say
IT IS A MUST TO HAVE A BOYFRIEND.
Hey you're too childish, but that's your opinions. For me, it seriously doesn't make you a loser because you're just too strong to step alone in this crazy world. But I don't deny that you would be a little lonely, but what the friends for, right ?
This is a big world, come on. Explore it. Explore it by your own. Meet various types of friends. The older or younger than you, boys or girls or even tomboys and gays. Explore the life while you still can to improve yourself, make yourself satisfy in everything you do, make the imperfectness of yourself to become perfection. :) Enjoy every little things first, dear girlfriends :D Don't stuck your young life with those irritating boys. Only then, you met someone you fall for, go for him. It's a bonus. :)

done here.

Fourth Scenario; You study once, You regret none.

Currently, I can see that people are getting lazy or pissed off in their study.
Come on ! Just have thoughts like this. You're studying for your unpredictable futures, but you can only have a student life once in your life which is Now. To have a great future, you need to study well. It is not what you're studying that would makes your future, but what you learned from 'em is the most important thing. Along with studying a subject, you could discover more and you will learn more bout life that getting ahead. Life is too simple. You've your hard works in the hard time, Allah will give you a thousand fortunes and livelihood.
So, what's the excuses you could made for not struggling till the end now ?
Everyone said, studying is boring except for Nerdy. Yes, I don't deny it but see in a different perception that it is you who make the studying boring. It is YOU. Only you know how to make studying fun and enjoyable. Only you knew the way you are.
Don't you be jealous looking at person who scores the best, who great in everything. Sincerely, I AM JEALOUS. I just wanna be like them, but in my own way.
You can play around now but don't be regret in future.
Just studying, it is much more easier than working.
You read, you understand, you practice and you write. It's simple.
Sometimes, working might using you brain more than you're studying. :)
Thus, learn and enjoy every single thing in students life in YOUR-OWN-WAY.

done here.

It think I might stop here, I just having mood to write but not too long.
It'll irritate you. Hehe :)
By then, Don't forget to make improvement in life.
"Sikit - sikit, Lama - lama jadi bukit"

Abashtaaaaa ;')

It almost one year since I'm a Korean addicted.
Okay ADDICTED not OBSESSED !

Dulu : "Ish, sorrylah I tak layan korea korea ni. Apa je tah korang obsess sangat.Bukannya handsome pun. Sorry not-my-cup-of-tea !"

Kini : " Awwww, Ji Hoo ! Lee Shin ! Abashtaaaa sini Abashtaaa sana, Omigod kann best kalau dekat Malaysia ni ada macam korean? -__-" "

See how annoying I am !
Not to deny it, now I'm addicted to them which by mean addicted to their story lines and ehemehem, alaaa yang handsome and cool cool tuuu :) Tell you later, mihmih

I started with Sassy Girl which I kindly impressed to watch the movie since the story line, especially the love stories touched me. Awwww, the songs too. If I'm not mistaken, I watch em on TV. prfftttt. Then, when I stucked in here, oh Bintulu. Despite having time chit chating, wasting my saliva and also time. I'm completing my free time with watching korea. :)
and now I have a long lists of the movie I watched !
but, simply said. Only a few are remarkable and attracted me. :)

Here we are, The Best Korean Movie I ever Watched :
1. Sassy Girl, (obviously)

Briefly said; I cried a lot watching this movie even for 5th times. :')
Love from hate is just a great story in life, Whatever that it faith, it will happen.









2. Coffee Prince,

Here, I love when less female characters :) which is super duper cool. Oh, it is also a love from hating someone.:)
So, unpredictable.










3. Heartstring, You've Fallen for me ♥

I just finished watched this on December 2011 and I watched it again in January 2011 I found this in Yana's pendrive. Okayyy, I love this story the most because of ;
First, I love someone like Lee Shin.
Secondly is I love the story line (Mr Perfect-Miss Imperfect).
Thirdly, I falling in love with the songs and I-DOWNLOADED-IT.
Fourthly, as I watched the movie, I just imagining the love stories of mine.

4. My Girlfriend is Gumiho ♥


Abashtaaaaa! Back-to-back after done watching Heart string! too addicted with the movie especially the Heroin who is too cute for me, I learned some of korean words and practice it daily, LIKE WHAT THE HECK :D but this movie is toooo cute to handle. :) Yus introduced me to this movie. At first, I was like "Macam kartun je! seringala bagai" but when I started to watch, I just talking about it LIKE-EVERY-DAY. super annoying kannnnn? pssst, Gumiho is the wolf. aufffff

5. Playful Kiss ♥

Another ♥ ? currently watching this and I am at the LAST EPISODE. sobsob
But what is the best here is MY JI HOO or in this movie, SEOUNG JOO. :) hehe
Whatever it is, it was enjoying watching these cute creatures and Hope-to-have-the-life-like-that. Subhanallah, No no. I'm grateful here to have what I have :)
but He is too cool to catch my attention and I hate it because I've fallen for these two Hero of Korean. :)







Tadaaaa, Now presenting The Korean Hero of My Life. puihhhhhhh :D


MY FIRST IMAGINARY LOVER ♥
Name : Kim Hyung Joong
Movie(s) addicted : Boys over flowers and Playful Kiss
Motives to be addicted :
1. His hair especially one with curly
2. His attitudes; He's too cool to handle himself,
3. The things that he did in the movies were awwwwwww ♥ speechless.
4. Handsome ? Perfect look. hehe
5. The smile melts me. Okayy enufff.




MY SECOND BOYFRIEND ♥
Name : Jung Yong Hwa
Movie addicted : Heartstring, You've Fallen for me
Motives to be addicted :
1. The cute smile, ouch melts.
2. The teeth, hehe
3. The voice and his songs. awwwww ♥
4. The way he talked, sangatsangat cool.
5. The hair, obviously lah
6. Handsome kannn? but not as my first darling tu. :)

Enuff dear Bee, hehe okayy well said. I'm just addicted only when I'm watching them not like crazy obsess-er :) Okayy, I knew the limits. Even in Islam. Whatever it takes, this is just for Dunia and for the afterworld, Our precious Prophet must be our role model that we are crazy obsessed for,5 times of solat please don't let it behind because of these korean-thingy and Al-quran have to be read as much as we watched the korean dramas. Balanced 'em !
Remember that dear Korean addicter ?

Don't come near me, Subhanallah.

Tulah padah dia kalau tidur sampai maghrib, dah lah ABC.
Subhanallah.


Assalamualaikum,
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

I just wanted to share the unbelievable half-dream and half-conscious's incident.
Clock shown 6pm when I was too sleepy after watching Merlin, I just wanted to lay down having a good time on bed but suddenly I was asleep like a baby. Normally, when you slept at this hours, you might dream on something weird and sometimes, scary.
but who cares, that was just dreams. "La la la la, sing a happy song . ." Okay, that's the alarm just exactly on 7PM. 7PM here was half an hour after maghrib. I dismissed the alarm and went to lay down again oh and switch on the light, for sure I will even I'm half dead. I fell asleep back.

At 8PM I guess, I was awake. yet mamaimamai.Hmm I can't barely moved. That's why I was fored to wake up. Then I just lay down on bed again.

8.03PM I guess, I was suddenly forced to sleep. I even didn't realized that either my eyes was opened or closed. I guessed it was opened. The voice was freaking near and it was SCARY. Subhanallah. "Auzubillahiminasshaitonirrajim". I started. "Bismillahirrahmanirrahim" It was not just whispering in heart but I heard my voice out but it was hard. I can't moved. I heard the scary voice near me and when I told you my eyes was opened, it was because I looked at my right. The other bed. It seemed to have someone there shouting for help. Her voice was totally clear. But still, I can't move. I forced to move and as I remembered, I recited Azan. Then non-stop with Ayat Kursi for 2 times. 1 failed but the second one without fail. I tought of my mother, my late-grandfather and my death. I was like, it is time ? as I struggled, I can feel the left eye had her tear. I read Ayat kursi, one and a half of em,I feel loosen, I moved. The force that forcing me was loosen bit by bit. I opened my eyes, I woke up and I sat down and still continuing my Ayat Kursi till the end. I took a deep breath. Looked right and left and in front too. Took my phone, it was 8.08PM. I felt cold. Then I grabbed Mira's broadband and online my facebook. I saw my mum and told her everything.

but the incident is just fresh in mind, till now. I can't barely speak either that was a dream or half-dream incident. I'm not afraid because I know Allah is the Mighty. It was a test since I'm on the red flag now.
Subhanallah. This kind of thing might be simply happening to any girls but not that husking scary voices and that lady's scream.

Subhanallah and Alhamdulillah, I am okay now.

Pick it off the petals.

At first, I have the heart not to go back. Reasons? seriously, without no reasons besides saving the money for more important things but going back is the most important thing to me NOW ! auuuffff,

I'd checked the tickets. Mas and Air Asia, the cheapest is around RM 300++, one way trip only. prrfff, but still have the heart to go back. Then suddenly, my mother called.
" Ma, nak balik boleh?"
hampa tak hampa bila dia cakap,

"Tak payahlah, seminggu je pun. Bulan 3 nanti balik"

I cried. A little tears because I feel lifeless to be here without cheers.
Everybody like going back, including my roomate. Some might going elsewhere.
I even don't have plans because I assumed that no planning should be done for this break.

Tapi, nothing is impossible. I'm strong enuff to survive here :)
Forget about going back and enjoy every little things here. Make something lifeless to become alive :) I'm keeping the miss and joy to be there at home until March,It's about 2 months and 9 days to go. Chill lah kannnnn ?

Ask me out, I'm delightfully will :)

Stealing Friends isn't exist.

Hello Wall with dots,
It's been a while since I last updated this wall because I have my other diary,
Noor Nazlia.And so, it is because of low connection of the internet here, never mind skip this.

Happy New Year, it TWOTHOUSANDTWELVE !
There are too many TWO in 2012 which Imma 20th too.

and the dramas had started, I mean a whole new dramas.
Whatever happened in 2011. Let them just stay there. :)
The first drama currently happening in my life is seeing people who desperately seeking for the attention. This is the other way, new way I think. Damn, this type of people are too old-fashioned and should be vanished from my sight !

If you're seeking our attention only when you feel that you need us, GET AWAY ! Don't show your moodiness and that irritating face to us unlike we're doing a big mistakes to you and as if we're not one of your friends. Feel threatened ? There nothing to be threatened while we did nothing to u even to anyone else. We are a human being which only care about the small group of us. The loves one, Family and bestfriends. You? maybe. If you don't act like this anymore. If you really eager to label us as your threat. See, we'll be the most irritating fucking THREAT to you.
Hey old-minded people, We don't steal especially stealing friends. Oh wait, is the words stealing friend exist ? NOOB.

Okay, whatever reasons lie in this drama between YOU and US. Opps, mistake. It's YOU and YOURSELF. Go and solve them yourself. Don't make us feeling rubbish to have friend like you. CHANGE !