don't say it again ,

I read that statement and I was paused for a while. Thinking.
you guys know what I'd been thinking ?
. . . what is really happening now ? . . .
. . . who is that 'her' ? . . .
. . . what's more that been hiding from me ? . . .
I'm tired of you putting me in the dark again like I have nothing to feel about.
okay I don't even care what you gonna do because you're not even mine but please don't put me aside without considering my feeling, I'm tired. And so, you're acting weirdly now.

I'm only asked for the truth from the first time I knew you lied to me.
Thank you,


I praised Allah for sending you, but what's more do YOU really wanna show me with this human, god ?
Why can't you just let him go from my heart if the reality is killing me ?
I know I can get over these suckiest feeling but why just can't you . . .
please with you beside me is like a fantasy begin.
YOU'RE NOT REAL TO ME ANYMORE !
I'm begging you dear bloggie, take this away. far far away so my heart could just have a nice smile again. perhaps.

It sealed with a love,

# to love and to be loved is the needs in human life,

Everything starts with the letters L O V E,
you may deny it but let see if this is true to you,

The first thing you have to do is to love Allah then you'll be in love with Islam,
The first move to made us is with a love then you'll then see the world,
The first step to be successful is to have love in study then you'll sincerely gain the successes,
The first scene to have a date with a man is to love them then you'll deeply falling in love with them,
The first drop of your tears might because of the love that is in pain then you'll suffer it until you could handle it,
The first laugh you had with the girlfriends is the the first joy of love you feel then you just going crazy for the second times,
The first hug you feel that warm you up when you are alone is a hug that full of love,
The first word might cross your mind when you see your family and friends is you see love in them,

yess I see love everywhere. It's only us to decide to have it or not to have it.
when I see those pictures, I see love love and lots of love that I'm missing right now. pleaseeee loves, do stay don't go because you are the love of my life. :'(

Hello desk,

Waking up so late yesterday because having fun in my bed enjoying the comfort sleep :)
I know some of you guys had started the class already,
don't be too jealous okay ? haha

This whole week, I have a few dates with a few 'person', haha
just kidding, a date with
MR SSK, MR CFM, MR CAG, MR POULTRY and so MR VANILLA.
Eventho having a week of mid sem break, we'll still having this ton of assignments. I wish to have a pleasant holiday without these Mr Assignment
because I'm tired dating them :D
but what else can we do, student ? :)

After came back from reban to feed those yummy chicken, struggling focusing with those reports on the chicken with hungry stomach and watching those interesting movies were so not relaxing :D but who cares at least I did enjoyed the moment hahaha.



Tomorrow, I'll will be dating Mr this and Mr that. catch ya soon.

P/S I love you

press button B then A,

"Ahoyyyy, are you ready kids ? , ai ai captain ! "
" swing higher ! "
hahaha. I'm working over here.
oh yess, yesterday was the Shell Family Day ,
and they having a Pirate theme :)
and as I told you guys earlier, I was incharged with the video game,it's WIIIII :)
sumpah best, budak tak reti main. Aku yang mainkan.
First of all, I'm kinda nervous because I simply don't know who will I deal with.
but starting up with kid and another kids, it was getting so much fun and enjoyable. But but but, standing all over more than 4 hours killing me softly. Haha
but I learned that it was a good thing handling with kids because they are fresh and unpredictable, kagum gila dengan sorang budak tu sebab focus dia pehhh terbaik :) He's chinese boy. Oh, no wonder they're good in study too :) and what I learned more was their parents very supportive even in term of playing games, their parents were like pushing their children to be the best and don't give up hope.
Hello parents out there, this is a good examples of what parents should be :)

Yesterday was a very tiring day but I gained more experiences in life.and yeah all the CAPTAINS were very supportive and great :)


The end of the working day.

Hello futsal, :)
tonight playing futsal again but with the girls. haha
it was fun but not so enjoyable like the previous one
and PLEASE DON'T STEP ON MY FEET :D

Who do you think you are,

tearing love apart,
you're gonna catch a cold,
to the ice inside your soul,
SO DON'T COME BACK FOR ME,
WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE.


I pray ALLAH each and everyday to give someone that
really mean everything to me,
not to hurt the small heart
but the right one to be hold in his arms.
Even I love you that much, but things gonna be different
tomorrow and you'll change,
so stop having a beat in my heart if you think you're not interested- beeha :(

sepak terajang masuk goal !

haha tajuk entri tu bukannnya I belasah orang, tapi I main futsal.
oh, tak terror pun. sumpah tak reti main. tapi minat, sebab dulu masa kecik kecik pun main sepak sepak bola dengan abg abg.
Ni kiranya kali ke 2 main futsal dengan classmates, campur perempuan dgn lelaki.

tapi yang semalam best gilaaaa, yelah 5-1 apa barang kumpulan lagi satu ? hahaha
2 daripada 5 tu I bernaseb baik dapat goal kan. Amin cakap konon konon bagi chance tapi sbnarnye die yang tak focus. hahaha

okay, my group stands of Mira, Deko, Yus, Daylon, Ejan, Fahmi, Azrim and I :)
kira kuatlah tu kononnye,mana taknye banyak orang MAS dalam group. hahaha
Then, cakap ada perempuan kan, memang riuh rendah lah tengah tengah malam semalam, mulut semua kepoh kepoh, sorry ye lelaki sekalian, orang jakun tak pernah main futsal. Haha :)
tapi kitaorang enjoy gilaaaa, macam seronok semacam yela baru nak start mid sem kan :)
tu lah aktiviti pertama untuk mid sem ni, yelaaaa I tak balik. :'(
Seriously, I really wanna go back home. looking at ppl rolling back their lugage herghhh. My heart was dumped, scratched and hurt haha *over*

tapi kan badan I pun makin sihat and sakit sakit tapi seronok :)

Then, my second activity for this mid sem break is tomorrow, working for a day at Kidurong Club House for Shell Family Day. Awesomeeee since I've never work seriously getting paid and so far, I just can't wait for tomorrow and takut jugak sebenarnyeee :) I'll be working from 10am to 6pm and will be paid RM 50 hehe, and we will be incharge in kids' game station- sand art and video games.
" How you gonna tell the kids that the video games only can be play 10 minutes per person? " yeahh, when people getting adDict with the game, how you wanna control them ? tell me, even a mature guys could never stop the games until they really satisfy so how about a kids ? :)
I know it will be tough handling with kids ! but who cares, you'll not know until u try kan ? yeahhh, sumpah tak sabar and people wish me lucks .

Selamat malam sayang, <3

Jealousy much.

we do feel jealous when there are people around us that are more perfect than us, what I mean is not that 'perfect' but one who is better than us.

For girls especially, we do feel jealous for the other when they are more prettier than us, have superb outfits with an extraordinary girlfriends and they have a life that we have dream for a long time ago. As though you deny it, it happened ! am I right ? :)

and at the same time, we are like geram gila gila. Kenapa dia comel sangat ? bapak cantik gila baju dia ! pandainya dia walaupun gilagila. goshhh. girls do feel that way, please herpp don't deny it. Haha
BECAUSE I DO FEEL THE SAME THING.

but, please remind ourself that we cannot be exactly like her.Bare in mind, you might be different from them from a different side, people are not that perfect because ALLAH MAHA ADIL. Please don't be such a copy cat but take the good side of them as something new for yourself to be better in the future.Girls, we should really improve ourselves from day to days to make us better for our future. Stop playing around with those unnecessary things and boys. We need to be balance in everything- study, life, love, friendship, family and oh the most important one is ALLAH.
Learn to make yourself better for you, your own good and not for the sake of others :)

be sincere in life and you'll be bless.

After a while,

Assalamualaikum dear blogie,

I'm back to make you my best mate to confess my happiness, joy, hurt and sadness together. It was a while since I was away form blogging. This is because I'm too busy starting my new semester and It's too pack.
Oh, this is my second blogspot and called wallwithpolkadots.
How about The Resistance ?
oh there is nothing bout the other blog, it is just I need something new for some refreshment and I think it is too pack to hold the blog for 3 years :)
I hope I could be as active as other blogger sharing infos and moments in life, I wish.
since now, time is my number one weakness. I try to use the time wisely and having this blogie might release my burden and stress I felt and will feel here.

It is so much pleasure to have you walking here and you are much appreciated.
Thank you.

Loves,
beeha